The box update!

I do have to start this off by saying, I have never, ever been so spoiled in my life! I woke up early on Saturday because Ben was calling at 9am... I knew I needed to get up and take a shower before he called, because I'd most likely be talking to him right up until I had to leave for work.. And I was right.

I opened the cards first.. They were soooooooo sweet! The messages that we wrote were the greatest, and most thoughtful words anyone has ever said.

Next was the great big box.... I opened while on the phone.. The only words I could say were, no, no you didn't... I had seen the famous C's all over the tissue paper.... I was still in shock... Ben had gotten me my very own coach purse.. The purse is beautiful... Never in my wildest dreams would I have ever even thought that I'd own a Coach purse... He defiantly blew me away! He also said that I had two more boxes coming... At that point, I was still speechless...

At 10:30 I needed to get off the phone, because as you know work calls my name!

When I got home, there were a big box and a smaller box.... The smaller box had had a bunch of red roses... just a tiny bunch, but oh so pretty.... and the bigger box had purplish roses in them.. The were almost the same color that he had bought before he left... I'd post pictures, but I forgot my camera in a friends car... So don't worry... Pictures will be coming!

I also didn't know that the flowers came with little notes... I had no idea.... until the next day when I was cleaning up the house... The messages that were wrote on those were oh so very sweet... it almost brought me to tears...

All I have to day, is that he is the sweetest... most greatest guy ever..... I don't know how lucky I got, but I'm glad that we met......

Why can't today be tomorrow???

Tomorrow is Valentines day!!! I want it to be today because I have a box that is screaming my name.... I rec'd it on Wednesday... Grrrr.... I want to open it now! But I promised Ben that I wouldn't open it until tomorrow... So I want to open it so bad! It is getting closer and closer to him being home, but I want it to be APRIL now!!!

I have a secret...

What do I and this picture have in common??? Well, I have decided to go back to school, to be come a medical assistant! I'm tired of these stupid, lame as, dead end, going no where jobs... I've always wanted to take the course, but I never got the chance... So next month on March 9th, I will be a Pima Medical Assistant Student...

Work today??

Nope.. They called and said they didn't want me to start til tomorrow..

SO...

My house is now soooo clean! Even the fishy's got a clean tank!! That's what started all the cleaning. But now I feel better about the house being clean....

I rec'd a package today too.. But I promised him I wouldn't open it until Saturday.. Why can't it be Saturday??

Great Friends

I have great friends....

We all know how poopy my birthday was this year... SO my great friends decided to do a make up birthday... We were supposed to go to Leavenworth, but with me being unemployed I had to cancel the trip... Sad times!

I since I'm no longer working, Ashlee and I haven't been able to hang out as much.. or talk as much.. So she asked me if I wanted to come over and watch a movie this weekend... I was like sure.. we have some catching up to do! But I let her know that I had to go to my cousins baby shower first, but I should be out at her house by 6.... Right, I didn't even get into Bonney Lake until 6pm... And the baby shower started at 1pm... That was one LONG baby shower...

When I finally got to Ashlee's house, the lights were off.. I was thinking weird... so when I walked up to the front door, Ash finally turned on the lights... I walk into the house, and streamers were hung in the house... I was like, why are streamers hanging up?? Ashlee said Brandon did it, he likes it... Know both Brandon and Ashlee for a while, hearing this didn't surprise me...

So as I went walking in all the way, to my surprise Marti and Daylene (sorry if I spelled it wrong.. I really tried to find the right way) were there, and waiting to scream surprise! Let me tell you they sure did surprise me, in a good and fun way!! They had went all out.. We made little pizzas... We even had goodie bags.. Filled with sex stuff, and my glow in the dark cap.. I can't wait to ware it!! They had brought over so much wine, it was some good shizz.... The cake that they bought, was absolutely amazing! They had a barbie man naked on a bear skin rug... haha it was great! and funny! I even had my own pimp cup... I drank lots of sparkles that night...

I felt bad, because I left early... I wasn't feeling very good.... But I want the three girls that went way out of their way, that I thank them very much!!! and that it was the best make up birthday ever!!!!

De.....

Pressed?

Me?

Maybe..... A little.....

I've been keeping a lot in, because I don't want to complain to anyone... I don't want to be that person that is bitching about her life... When honestly, there is so much worse things going on right now... I feel like I'm being weighed down by all the stuff I've been keeping in.

I've been unemployed. Yep, this down economy has gotten to me... I've been looking for new jobs.. Possibly a new career... Right now I'd love to have a new career, rather then a new job... But right now I think that I'm just going to have to go with a job. I've been offered two jobs so far. Yes.. Two.

1. Working for Dollar Wise, one of those check cashing/ payday loan places. I wouldn't have minded working there for a while, but... Honestly, $9.00 per hour... I can't live off $9.00 per hour. That would barely be enough for my apartment, the jeep, car insurance, and the cell phone.

2. Working for this car lot... it is an extra $1.00 an hour. Yes.. A whole dollar... What will I be doing??? I'll be calling your ass, trying to get you to come into the car lot, and if they make a sale of you, then I get extra money. They say that with the commissions, that I'll be making about the same that I was at Allstate... That's cool.. but do you see any light at the end of this tunnel? There is no long term, stability in this job.

I really don't know what I'm going to do... I want to work, but should I hold out and hope for something better... Unemployment is going to be paying just slightly worse then what those jobs are going to be paying... So what should I do? I know with the car lot, I'd be able to hold on to my apartment just a little longer... If I went on unemployment, I know with out a doubt, I'd need to find another place to live.

Another place to live??

My one new years resolution this year, was to not move... Not once because, I've spent so much time moving... Picking up everything and moving... Last year it was 5 times.. I don't want it to be another 5 times this year.. I wanted to stay in one spot. I actually have my name on a mail box.. To some people that it small.. but to me, that is huge... HUGE... And now, I might get it taken away... Where am I going to live??? I can't go back to Mommy's house... To many animals, and my sister is prego... I don't want to be in the way of what they are going through...

I guess the path that I have been on, has been changed... and things are going to be a little bit rocky... I know I will come out of this standing strong.. but right now it just seems so hard. And talking to people about it is even harder. I don't want to be the downer in a conversation.

I guess what I'm really looking for out of all this is something that it stable... I want to be stable... It is something that I've never really ever had...